"Be still and know that I AM God!"

In these past two weeks or so, I've been struggling with fear and wondering if I am jumping into something that's way over my head. As if, I am standing on that bridge in Colorado again, not knowing what's underneath of me, but knowing that if i don't jump... I will never live it down.
I have been seeking God's will for my life in a way that I have lost over the past two years. I find myself restless, and unfulfilled. My heart is literally aching for something more. I found myself crying out to God. Knowing that He IS the ONLY one who can silence my pain and satisfy my fears. I have been asking for "peace." Humbling myself and asking for His will, and not my own. Entering into a marriage is essentially entering into "forever." With the upcoming wedding, getting cold feet is supposedly normal, but the uneasy feeling I've had really bothers me. I found myself in devotions this morning, and God spoke me to over and over again, "Be still and know that I AM, God." -Psalms 46:10. Here again I am praying for peace, and God is telling me to give it over to Him, because HE is God. I'm not sure how much more clear He could be, but yet i still struggle with Him. He is patient with me, and I still want control. Is it my strong-willed nature, or just my disobedience to Him? Here and Now I am trying to let go of the situation. I am doing what i can to "be still." and let Him be God, becoming the Woman of God He has called me to be, in my marriage and in my life.
Lesson here: stop trying to do everything on my own, failure will come, craziness will come from trying to piece everything together on one's own, instead let God be God, and He will work everything out for YOUR good.